DRAMA QUEEN....NOT QUITE

Disappear

2010-11-29T22:45:00.000+13:00

i'm no longer here.

i'm here now

2010-09-24T11:35:00.002+12:00

don't count on me to write anything anymore.The blog is officially dead!

si chickas,Este blog muerta,comprende mi?

living my life is too demanding that i have to ditch this beloved blog of mine.

kthxbai

2010-08-17T23:28:00.002+12:00

i need to shop but then again nothing much to buy?i can't buy anymore clothes cause my wardrobe is full and the bf keeps reminding me of the unworn ones.i could totally go just for ONE handbag now.The one that i saw on Topshop website was gorgeous and purrfect!!pretty please??

and now that is no longer THAT cold,time to pack up those thick jackets and bring out the tunics!wheee.oh ya,which reminds me,i need to update the wardrobe.heeeeeeee

but then again,we're saving up for Gold Coast trip this summer.pfttttt

oh which reminds me,melbourne was awesome!!but not so much of shopping heaven as it has been dubbed as.blerghhh.though i love their MYERS and David Jones and big ass DFO.and the Nine West and Aldo were so much better than the ones in KL.oh,cheaper too!

overall,melbourne was okay.but didn't give me the feeling "oh,we so gonna have to come here again".

Next one,Gold Coast,Sydney and Perth!though i'm not really that keen for sydney.Aussie is pretty much the same every city i think.i'm not architectural junkie hence the Opera House doesn't really impress me.Better save up and visit England!Pidot is there and we'll get free accommodation.LOL

if any of you,find this post doesn't make any sense,guess what?it DOES!i'm completely rambling right now!booo

2010-07-29T13:16:00.003+12:00

back to reality!and it ain't fun!!dirty kitchens(major turn off for me to do any cooking!!),laundry piling up,school stuff to catch up!damn it.

but,two weeks home was superb nonetheless!and i;m mad happy for i finally found the perfect jeans that fit me so well without having to alter them!screw levi's or G-star raw for dorothy perkins had the perfect jeans for me!so i bought three jeans of the same colour,size and design!that's how obsessed i am with DP!be in my shoes and you know how hard it is to find jeans that suit me nicely!being naturally voluptous *ehermmm* with ass we bit smaller than Kim Kardashian and fleshy thighs,looking the perfect jeans are like needle in the haystack!but oh well,i found mine and thats that!

i'm beginning to miss motak and mia.they both so adorable!and i've developed new addiction,babies' head!!they smell so nice!!

2010-07-15T02:20:00.003+12:00

i'm hooomeee!!but being home when there's no one around drives me nut!!mum is busy like always and dad is her permanent driver hence leaving me and maid and my chubby sister home.maid would be on computer facebooking(yes,she has an account and i have to fight for the computer!)geezzz.

i'm home for a day and i can't stay put already!!i need to go out and eat or shop or whatever that spells fun!not sitting around all day and stuffing myself and watching tv like a lazy fat housewife!!yikes(no pun intended)

can't wait to go to kl and meet up with tash and kimi and have some fun!i mean being home is fun but when your folks are busy as bees,it ain;t that fun!sighh

oh,for the first time ever,i broke curfew!i made a promise with my uncle to be back before 10 and i was home at 11.30.but i was out with nik's family so that should be good excuse right?all of this made me appreciate the freedom that i have while i'm in lincoln where no one tells you what time you should get your ass home!it made me think about living by my own once i'm back for good.I'm not a ten year old and so,i refuse to be treated like one!i'm 22 for god's sake!

i was not exactly a rebellious type,i did break the restrictions wee bit here and there but i pretty much do what they want me to hence i personally think i deserve to have my own stand on certain thing!being grounded sucks!!gahhh

2010-07-11T01:19:00.002+12:00

i'm bored the hell of my mind and got too bored i found myself checking my old friendster account!i almost forgot that i had one!but oh well,flipping through the old photos brought back those crazy memories back in AUSMAT years.All of us have grown into different people,taking our own paths and how far we drifted apart.oh well,that's just how it works.I'm getting all sentimental and mushy aren't i?

i'm not supposed to be wasting time!i'm supposed to clean up my room,fold all the laundry and pack for malaysia!!yeap,i'm going back for two weeks!!woot woot!!!

oh,another thing!i've gone back to black!like jet black after so much contemplation!!it's like even darker than my original hair.but nevermind.i'm so happy with it that i might decide not to go brown or auburn again in near distant future.pfffttt

2010-07-01T12:53:00.000+12:00

can't you tell?

i'm beyond lazy to write anything here

kthxbye

HUGE TRUNK

2010-06-21T21:54:00.006+12:00

I LOVE MY BIG ASS!

beauty and the beast

2010-06-09T16:15:00.003+12:00

I'm not really a sucker for romantic movies and definitely NOT a fan of Vanessa Hudgens but for some reason i was attracted to this one!too bad it only comes out in 2011.but yeah the main actor is HOT!*hyperventilates* and oh Neil Patrick Harris is in it too!

2010-06-08T01:54:00.002+12:00

"Ignorance is a bliss"

sometimes i live by that phrase simply because all the petty,unimportant things don't really matter to me and never will be.I lay out the rules of my own live and if you don't like it,to hell with your opinion and what you think of it.

I say what i want to say and judge according to my own beliefs.I don't play pretend and i reveal my true colours.Hate me all you want.I don't give a damn cause you don't matter to me and your opinion worth nothing to me.

tasya said,the only reason why there are still idiots lingering around is because it is illegal to get rid of them and it's true.Oh well,who am i to judge them.I'm no einstein(oh wait you don't need IQ of more than 121 to see if people are idiots or not!).

On a lighter note,i can't wait for the exams to be over!!exam week is such a torture!!and i'm really homesick!ishh.I miss my parents so bad and now i develop a habit of breaking down to tears whenever i speak with them over the phone.(Shut it!don't tell me that i'm such a baby.It's a well known fact.TQ)

where's retail therapy when you need one?Oh wait.I can't cause I'm broke!sigh

enough of senseless rantings.Gotta go back burying myself with books.

k thx bye

"He pulled me into safest place I know.

And he paints me with the most vibrant colors of love"

and that's why i love you,nyet!xoxo

2010-06-04T03:27:00.003+12:00

i was bored and out my sane mind so i decided to ransack my own closet and guess what i found,AT LEAST 6 NEW,UNWORN WITH PRICE TAG DRESSES!membazir much?keep buying new ones but never been worn.

and i remembered paying full price for those dresses!!!impulsive much.sighhh.

reminder to self:DON'T BUY ANY DRESSES UNTIL THOSE UNWORN ONES BEEN WORN AT LEAST ONCE!(but i'm pretty sure i still buy new ones.hahahaha)

no wonder the boyfriend being a mak nenek when he saw me buying dresses.

but hey.i'm no one to blame.I'm living in frikin CHRISTCHURCH and being underdress is normal and effortlessly comfortable.and now,it's freeeeziinggg.balik2 pakai jeans,tights and sweaters.My trusted cotton on sweaters that is.I swear Cotton on sells the most comfortable hoodies ever.and it's el cheapo.what's there not to like right?

my daily staple wear would be my flats,my kids jeans(yes i wore kids jeans because they have it perfectly in my size and length!!xpyh nk alter2!) and my sweaters.Being underdress is how it is here hence i don't find myself spending extra time getting dressed and i swear i get ready way faster than the boyfriend!!

even going to riccarton pon i can simply wear my pjs and no one would give u any look so its normal!i like it here!it's effortless and comfortable and people don't give you any kind of stares!so i think the dresses can hold first and it could mean that i'm on dress shopping ban for at least a year!OH NO!!!

2010-06-03T02:19:00.002+12:00

whatever those israelis did to the people on board of those flotillas heading towards Gaza are way beyond inhumane and no valid excuse for it.

Not only i was angry by the sight of it,it made me think how lucky i am for never have to go through such hardships and i really thank God for that.It made me really grateful.I have so much around me but yet i still complain.

Those israelis deserved to a slow painful death!what they did was way too much for people too handle.Since when trying to aid people become a crime and seen as an attempt to attack group of soldiers who were armed to the teeth???

No wonder even the God,as the most compassionate and most forgiving above all had they condemned till the judgment day.Not only those israelis are hated by the whole world,even in the eyes of the Almighty,they can't be salvaged.

My condolences to the families of the flotilla victims.Let's all pray that the convoy will be safe throughout the journey.

2010-05-30T21:59:00.002+12:00

current cravings:

Blackberry gallette

macarons(do i need to say more??)

you see,i'm the sugar based type of person.My moods are highly influenced with sugar contain in this fat body of mine and without doubt,sugar deprivation leads to severe moodswings and excess of it makes me hyper!but still,my body will not work without sugar and i'm always in constant need of sugars.Just so my body would work accordingly and to avoid me being cranky.So moral of the story,if anyone sees me crany,just shove ANY type of food that has high sugar contain!but NOT turkish delight and sweets cause i can't take it!make it creamy and sweets.demanding much?yes i know.haha

lets clear the air shall we?

2010-05-29T00:53:00.003+12:00

Just so we clear,i won't try to please people and u won't find me sucking up to people and i don't expect people to please me too.

I know i wasn't exactly an angel in the past nor in the present but i live the way i want to and if you find it hard for you to accept it,don't bother going around bitching about it.It's doing no one any good.

I try fixing my way everytime i could and i know i don't live all by myself and there's a need for me to follow people's way sometime but if i find your ways are ridiculous,pardon me for not trying to conform to it.Heck,i don't even need to apologize in the first place.

I'm trying to put it the nicest way I can here so please,i expect you to at least have some self respect and try not to go around ranting about it!

you wanna talk manners with me?Go ahead.I can go on and on pointing out your flaws but why bother?everyone has flaws and please don't overestimate yourself.We're no gods and only mere humans so save it for yourself.Learn to evaluate yourself before you start pointing out others flaws.

If you have the littlest tiny bit of self respect left in you,please stop and fix your ways before try to fix others.

Oh,lastly,if you find any of my writings are too offensive for you,stop reading this blog.I write whatever i want.It's called freedom of speech.Have you heard of it?

I mind my own business,so i suggest you start doing the same thing.

Hate me or love me,It's an obsession!

2010-05-26T00:15:00.003+12:00

the weather has been really depressing lately.it's been raining non stop for a week and seemingly it'll continue to rain for another week then followed by snow!(yay or nay?)

thanks to the weather,i've been skipping ALL Of my classes.The car broke down and mr boyfe was quite busy and had no time to fix it and me being a spoilt rotten brat as always refused to take the bike to uni(walking is even out of the question!)

another big news,i have THREE(3) assignments due this thursday!Oh god,please save me!!

worst news of the day:my stupid chinaman groupmate of ACCT308 decided to bail on me and kemmey!he wanted to do the assignment alone and told us its because we hardly reply him!what the bloody hell!ishh.Kemmey and I never failed to finish up our parts and most of the time it was just me and kemmey who worked our asses off on case study!!stupid bloody chinaman!!!for the past three cases,it was kem and I who were doing all the work.all he did was just buggging me and kem to finish it up!what an ungrateful bastard!whatever loser.Go on and do the assignment yourself.we'll see if Jack Radford can really understand what you're trying to say!pffftttt

2010-05-23T12:17:00.002+12:00

seriously,why all malaysian singers nowadays sound like indonesian singers?crisis identity much?oh wait typical la kan.orang nak nanyi mcm tu they wanna sing like that jugak kan??the thing about indonesian singers is,their songs are nice because of the music arrangement and the lyric doesn't sound that corny.ishhhh

tolonglah,have a stand please.How typical can it get??

oh one more thing,to malaysian rappers,stop sounding like a p.diddy or any african american rappers.And what's the big deal with this Caprice fella??geez.he's not even good.and god,don't get me started with his MVs.It's heinous.U think u're the next p.diddy??exploiting sexy girls in MVs should be left to pitbull.Simply because,those girls are already skanks to begin with.but those malaysian girls in his MVs aren't and when they tried,it just looked real bad!

For goodness' sake,save the trouble lah people.

oh btw,Shahir af8 was quite good.I mean not bad for AF products since we all know that AF artistes ni not so much of talents.promo je lebih.surprisingly,he's got the package!~

Sexy

2010-05-17T18:52:00.002+12:00

the ability to be comfortable in our own skin is not acquired by many.As girls,we are highly insecure creatures and self conscious all the time.Not to forget that due to our jealousy nature,sometimes things turn rather ugly.

I'm no exception when it comes to this matter.I admit that i'm insecure and have issues with my self esteem that leads to those bad feelings of "oh god,im ugly.i'm fat.i have big thighs,i hate my tummy and yada yada yada".

But the key to this problem lies within our own self.we can choose to be insecure and keep on whining on our physical imperfections and compare ourselves to other prettier girls and end up having bad feelings to ourselves or just make the best of the imperfections.

Pretty girls are NOT that pretty.People are not perfect.(Unless your name is jessica alba).Even Kim Kardashian has a sex tape.duhhhh

Stop whining about your issues and start to realize that you're what you are.You may not be 5"7 or have body like Victoria secret's angels but you are pretty in your own ways.

Feeling good in your own skin is the best thing you can do to yourself.I have issues too but then i learnt that being insecure won't get me anywhere.All i get is feeling upset,feeling bad about myself.When it comes to this matter,the only person that can help you is yourself.So please,stop whining how short you are,how big your ass are(big ass are the new sexy!look at the kardashians!screw stick thin figures.Even the VS' angels are voluptous!).Your body is just the way it is

Some people resort to going under the knife based on the claim that its pressure.No one pressure you!its you who made yourself.I mean,being called plastic is even worse.It's not doing your self esteem any good.You'll end up feeling the need of to go for more!

and being sexy is being confident with yourself.It's not about the way you dress.Some people think that sexy is to dress like a skanky slutty whore.Well guess what,it's not!Feeling good in your own skin is not magically handed in to you.It has to be earned by self evaluation.And for that,screw what people think of you.

I may not be as thin as i was before and my skin may be the biggest bitch of all by breaking out like hell,i still find myself ok.I think i'm too blessed to be stressed about these petty things.I have family that really supports me,a boyfriend that spoils me rotten,friends that stick to me through thick and thin despite people hating my guts(jealous much??).Count your blessings before you start whining.

60 Important things guys should know(just for the heck of it)

2010-05-16T01:28:00.000+12:00

1. Don’t say you love me if you don’t mean it.

2. We are beautiful at all times.

3. Don’t ever lie to us we always find out.

4. Don’t say you understand when you don’t

5. You don’t have PMS don’t act like you know what its like.

6. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!

7. We absolutely DO NOT care about trucks, car systems, paintball or anything else you and your friends talk about.

8. We don’t like it when you act like a big shot.

9. Hugs and kisses must be given at all times.

10. No matter what you say your ex is a hoe.

11. Its good to be sensitive sometimes.

12. If you did something wrong or even if you didn’t just apologize.

13. Be spontaneous dinner and a movie won’t always cut it.

14. We are self-conscious by nature; we can’t help it.

15. Even if you think it’s cool to burp, fart it’s NOT.

16. We will always think we are fat so humor us and tell us we aren’t.

17. Hugs and kisses MUST be given at all times.

18. You have to tell a girl how you feel about her we make no assumptions.

19. Wear calogne.

20. Girls need food, water, and compliments to survive.

21. Try and carry a conversation.

22. Anything we say or do during that 7 days to a week each month cannot be held against us.

23. If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed

24. Having us over while you and your friends play video games does not count as “quality time”.

25. Just because we groom ourselves on a regular basis does not mean we’re high maintenance.

26. Its cute when u remember the little things about us.

27. Its cute when your hands always find ours.

28. Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.

29. Just because we’re in a serious relationship doesn’t mean we plan to marry you someday, so stop being so damn scared.

30. Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn’t want us to know about is considered cheating.

31. If we can admit that we’re wrong, you’d better be able to do the same.

32. Think before you speak, it’ll make a world of difference.

33. Make fun of our clothes be prepare to die.

34. We don’t always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn’t hurt to at least offer once in a while.

35. Tell us we’re beautiful.

36. Little things in a relationship are really the biggest.

37. We love it when you gently caress any part of our body with your fingertips while your holding us.

38. We’re sensitive so be gentle.

39. We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends.

40. Flowers don’t fix everything

41. If you say you will call us, then call us! We hate waiting!

42. If you plan to break up with us, do it on your own.

43. Baggy pants that hang down past your butt are NOT attractive

44. If we tell you we don’t want to talk to you usually we mean it so back off for awhile.

45. NEVER say any girl looks hot even a tv star, when you’re around us. We pretend it doesn’t bother us, but you should hear what we tell our friends.

46. When we say we wanna talk, we want someone to listen not someone to smile and nod to everything.

47. Us girls talk 2 our friends about everything I MEAN EVERYTHING.

48. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.

49. We like you to be a little jealous but overly possessive is not necessary.

50. We’re allowed to be late you are not.

51. Eye contact is key.

52. Don’t take longer to get ready than we do.

53. Laugh at our jokes.

54. Three words honesty, honesty, honesty.

55. We will never have enough clothes or shoes!

56. Clean your room before we come over.

57. Always brush your teeth before you see us a fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.

58. Sensitive guys are great, but crying more than we do in a movie just isn’t right.

59. DON’T LET EX-GIRLFRIENDS CAUSE DRAMA, RELATIONSHIPS ARE STRESSFUL ENOUGH

60. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.

p/s: take not of the points that are Bold

every picture tells a story

2010-05-15T19:12:00.008+12:00

Milford Sound

Mind the Gap!

The resemblances between a father and a son are way too uncanny!(my nyet will look something like that in the next 25 years to come)lol

just pictures from the trip

2010-05-13T09:32:00.002+12:00

i was practically laughing my ass off when uncle asked me of my decency.I was waiting for the question to pop!but anyway i like explaining it to people as it will leave them puzzling about it.How can the traits can still be clearly visible if it was seven generations ago,no?

the great great great(i don't know how many greats was there in it because it was 7-8 generations ago)grandfather hailed from pakistan and ended up marrying locals.5 generations later,the grandfather had the look and so it was passed down to me.Genetics are really confusing! Even mum's friend kept asking the same thing.Since i look nothing like mum and dad and i used to have the thought that i was adopted!But then again,i was convinced because Tok ayah has that hero tamil look.ahahaha.

but i'm proud to say that i'm 100 percent full blooded malay!and i'm dead proud to be one!! even though i do wish that i have fairer skin like my parents and my sisters!pftttt

2010-05-10T23:54:00.002+12:00

to be completely frankly honest,i am full of hatred right now.too much hatred in me and it is not good!and i don't feel contented.or maybe it's just the fatigue doing the talking.

on a happier note,i had an amazing weekend in queenstown.Tiring but super fun.The view was magnificent and the best part was,queenstown's weather did not go bonkers!perfect weather.now that's what i called a vacation!!

after ten days of getting used to having raul and katarina around,we're finally back to just by ourselves.the truth,it feels kind of lonely.No more sound of the two squabbling and calling each other names.it made me felt like i'm home with my own brother and sisters.sigh.

now i'm back to reality!sheshhh

anyway,it was really nice to have uncle and the kids around.It was one helluva memorable ten days.

2010-05-06T11:18:00.003+12:00

reliable?how do you even determine that?it is all subjective.it is all in the shades of grey.no black and white.

how do u know that the person is reliable enough for you?just because she/he is your close friend doesn't mean they'll be reliable right?how do you even know that the person that you trust won't turn their back on you?if you say you know that you're being foolish.

human is made NOT to be reliable.One of the defects that God has made us.But then again,it is up to us to ignore or to give in to the defect.

Then came the issue of trustworthy.How do you even trust a person who badmouth other person but at the same time call that person her close friend?You don't!

Here's the situation for example:This girl A is rather a bitchy person and not to appear to everyone's liking.Then This girl B always with her.Joke around and all those things.Then came the other girls C and D and E who happened to be B's bestfriends.Then she started telling C,D and E how bitchy A is.If u hate her in the first place,why bother staying close to her?But B still staying close to A.how screwed up is that?

I've seen this type of people so many times.Well i'm not claiming i'm an angel myself cause i know i'm not and i'm nowhere near it.at least i know where i'm standing!duhhh

Even the most respectable person could be the biggest jerk of all.We are human.We are NOT perfect but it is up to us to fix the imperfections.If you want to really be a bitch,do it in the light.Don't hide cause it just make you look even worse.A classy bitch is the one who speaks up her mind and don't give a crap what others think.suffice to say,a classy one has a stand!A stupid bitch is the one that think she's accepted by people while she makes complete fool of herself.And for the love of God,please don't swear you don't do this and that cause you did!

pardon me if this is harsh to your liking but heck,this is my freakin' blog and i do whatever hell i want with it.At least i'm being honest.

like a bee

2010-05-05T02:32:00.003+12:00

busy busy busy!that's all i can say now.nik's dad is here and to my horror,both of them are alike!no kidding,be it the physical traits and their personalities too.textbook classics of like father like son.except his dad has this super pleasant aura around him.so,we've been touring around the christchurch and i've seen the whales!and penguins.i swear,the penguins are like the cutest thing on earth!eventhough they smelt super fishy but they're cute.with their tiny flippers and little feet.going off to queenstown in two days.err more like babysitting nik's brother and sister since his dad brought them along.thank god they behaved well!

i have this habit of blogging when i'm mati kutu ie,i ran out of things to do while i have piles of work waiting to be sorted out and study for tests.4 more weeks of school then it's final!scary much?

ishhh.and i've been sleeping deprived for these past few days.haihh.

gtg finish my journal report.ahhh,i love jack radford.pfttt

2010-04-24T04:52:00.002+12:00

i'm seriously HOMESICK!i want nothing else but to be home and surrounded by my family.the warmth of mum's hug,the soothing of dad's smile and the noise of sibling's bickering.I'd do anything to get that now.

UV allergy

2010-04-24T00:13:00.003+12:00

finally,after a LONG LONG drought of DECENT vampire movies(please don't mention twilight cause is so not even close to decent.it's a vampire movie biggest disaster EVER!) came DAYBREAKERS!

I was so amazed with the storyline.Usually it's rather predictable like most other Vampire Movies but Daybreaker is one helluva of a movie!Best movie of the year,well it came close after Shutter Island.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Daybreaker.Finally,the movie that made me NOT regret to spend 13dollars on!worth every penny.Who could have thought that Ethan Hawke would make such a good vampire,well after Stuart Townsend as Lestat in Queen of the Damned and Ian Somerhalder of Vampire Diaries' Damon Salvatore.

And being a HUGE fan of BLOOD and GORE,this movie is definitely my favourite.Lots of reaping and blood and scattering flesh.Call me sick but that's just how i like the movies.I don't go for mushy2 stuff except for a few like The Notebook and Walk to Remember.

DAYBREAKER is HIGHLY recommended!i give it 9.5/10!

2010-04-22T00:20:00.003+12:00

in the midst of trying to eat healthy(gotta lose that excess pounds!!),i have a craving!craving for pasar malam's glorious food.i'm not the type that feel icky towards pasar malam food fyi and never once i had diarrhea or food poisoning from consuming it.screw the thoughts that pasar malam's food is not highly hygienic.but who cares,we're malaysian!pasar malam is another part that make malaysia as it is.DO NOT DENY IT!

suddenly i feel like having yong tau fu,tau fu fah,the super greasy ayam musang(i mean the whole fried chicken bones),assam laksa,nasi kerabu,char kuew teow and chicken wings!i'm seriously salivating right now.but no i have to fight it!!pasar malam's food can wait.

and i blame myself for constantly thinking about food.i eat a lot!like nobody's business and no one can really stop me.even the boyfriend enjoy the sight of me having my big-ass portioned meals!ishhh.

i need to stick to my diet so bad!i have to cut all these midnight binging,coke(i practically live on coke and i hardly drink plain water) and other sweet things and i'm the type that would do anything to satisfy my cravings,hence i would look it up on the internet and somehow magically managed to replicate the dish and voila,there's another few pounds being added on!urghhh

i have no one else to blame.i have no persistence,no strong will and most importantly,i give in to my needs to munch.aihhh.sampai bile la nk fit nih?arghhh.

how's that for an irony

2010-04-20T01:55:00.003+12:00

my monyet is possibly the most sensible person around me right now(when i say around,at the moment where i'm far faraway from mum and dad!).he never fails to knock some sense into this thick skull of mine.and i hate to admit he's right!

yes,i'm the most hard-headed,stone-hearted person you could ever find and my spoilt brat attitude would definitely get me nowhere but thanks to you nyet,you made me better person!and thank you so much for trying to make it right, everytime!

you made me grew up!yes u did,yet you're still the most retarded person around me.how's that for an irony?!but i love you to bits nevertheless!and that is why you're called my better half!

xoxo

(go ahead and puke if you find this too corny.he's my boyfriend and this is my freaking blog,so i'd day whatever i want,b****!LOL)

life with you

2010-04-19T17:32:00.002+12:00

i just have MAJOR crush on her.that's all.though the song's meaning is very meaningful.do i understand it?YES,i do!thanks to my teeny tiny ability to be multilingual with arabic.i spent 5 freaking years learning arabic but yet,i have a little understanding on it!lol

2010-04-17T19:12:00.002+12:00

it's the end of easter break and beginning to a gruelling 6 weeks with tests and assignments as the side dishes!how "good" is that?

but no dreads!my easter break has been a good one.there is NO single day that i actually stayed home and lazed around!we went out every freaking day!and yes,my pocket detested me for doing so!.and i ran out of things to buy!good for me!!*pat self on the back*(is it good or a bad thing??)

and my monyet turned 22 last thursday!happy birthday nyet!not that you'll be reading this blog anyway.heh.

funny story:

we went for a dinner date at Portofino and the food was fab!the pollo cacciatora and parmigiana were amazing!then we headed home,watched movie etc.then suddenly the monyet told me he was hungry!so was i.so i cooked sardines just to satisfy our needs for nasik!we have very perut melayu i'm telling you!in the end the cheap sardines and telur dadar made us kenyang.so much for the fine dining huh?LOL

2010-04-14T01:22:00.000+12:00

want to know how bored i am?i painted my nails three times this week alone!that's just prove how takde keje i am.sheeshhh.

oh shiatttttttt,i have ACCT308's case study due this monday.

2010-04-13T17:27:00.002+12:00

I WANT a kitten!Nay,I DEMAND for a kitten!can someone please talk to the landlord so that he will magically let us keep pets in the house??even he has a terrier!ish,this is injustice!

but anyway there is this one black cat always comes to our house and ask for food and we feed him!then the landlord came and saw the cat and told us to hit the cat so he would stop coming!and of course,there is NO way we would hit cats!the whole household are obsessed with felines!how could we do such things.

so for now,the black cat is the only pet(not even ours mind you.She belongs to some neighbour who FAILED miserably to take care of the poor kitty).She would come for her brunch and dinner and she eats a lot!not that i'm complaining but i would love to get my own kitty!

2010-04-01T01:37:00.002+13:00

this song has nothing to do with me in any ways.i just love the sound of the piano and the beat of this song.Sounds very soothing except the lyric is so emo.

2010-03-31T18:41:00.002+13:00

call me superficial but i'm a sucker for guys with washboard abs!too bad the boyfriend lost his!and he blames me for my high cholesterol cookings!pftttt

2010-03-30T21:26:00.002+13:00

Dear Hair,

Please grow faster!i promise i won't dye,use curling iron or anything that would hurt you.please please grow faster!i miss having you in longer version.I promise i'll take of you and give you some deserved attention.i'm begging you!grow faster please!

xoxo

An Hour of Darkness In the Name of The Green

2010-03-30T00:12:00.005+13:00

pardon my statement that i about to make for i trying to make a sound statement right here!

i don't find Earth Hour doing any good for us!seriously,how do you guys think that by turning off just an hour of light can offset the carbon that emitted from the excessive use of energy for the rest of 365 days of the year?yes it may make a lot of different when the whole world participate but the next hour after the earth hour,the whole world will be back to the same old thing.

i'm not trying to be anti-green or whatever but seriously have this WWF people ever thought about that beside being all green?did they ever try make logic of their propositions to the public?and half of the public that follow this whole green campaign thingy would be obviously blatant and ignorant towards such things!they just got all excited just for the fact that they're being green!

i think i made myself pretty clear.if you really want to help save the world,try by start not to produce to much waste and start recycling!and from what i see,malaysians need to be educated with the recycling first before going any further with this green thingy!

Earth Hour isn't doing the mother earth any good.The earth is still withering and dying every second of it.So please,stop making a big deal that you people joined the earth hour by switching of the light for a mere one hour!don't you did that for approximately 5hours a day when you go to sleep??what's there for another extra hour?and for just one whole day?might as well the whole world goes to dark for 24 hours and we'll see how much different does it going to make!(but yes i know it's illogical to shut down 24 hours of energy cause the whole world would be in a complete chaos!!duhhhh,i ain't a bimbo ok)i'm just being hyperbolic right here.

seriously,kick some logic into your thoughts!stop following things so blatantly and starts actually to realize the real deal.open up your minds.Don't simply follow things just because some Green activists say so.those activists aren't exactly the brightest out of all in the bunch.If you want to do some goods,do it with knowledge.

(i wrote this just a reminder to myself as well.don't go all outrage when you stumble upon this.think about it)

new baby~

2010-03-29T15:17:00.003+13:00

meet my new baby!!!!

my radiant red psp!thanks to mr boyfriend!well,actually there's hidden agenda why he gave me this!so that i won't bug him whenever he's playing league of legends!so this baby serves as a distraction for me!but whatever it is,i still love and i still bug him whenever he's on with his LoL!Thank you darling for the distraction/present!

andddd i finished with my God Of War:Chain of Olympus!in desperate need of new game.thinking of either silent hill:origins or Assassin's Creed.

2010-03-27T14:12:00.003+13:00

is it just me 'cause whenever i see people's picture on fb,every girl in malaysia is trying to become more of sluts nowadays??

is the sluts the new classy?anddddd,these sluts wannabe are such an eyesore!blerghhh.

i know it's none of my business but kind of annoying la.if you wanna become sluts or bitches or tramps make sure you do it properly!ahahaha

what's happening to those sweet,girl next door type?i'm not talking about the way girls dress or whatever but the way they carry themselves~!

you know it's true that you can spot a slut from far!and these sluts wannabe tried too hard to become one that they just look weird and rather attention seeking acts!

seriously,am i being conservative?pfttt.i don't normally judge people on what they wear but the way they act at first glance!you can come to me in undies and i won't call you crazy as long as you carry yourself well!but these girls oh god!i cringe everytime i see one of them!

oh god now i'm yapping like an old makcik but whatever.these girls need wakeup call that being sluts aren't doing them any good!and trying to be one while the fact that you're not all that is a waste of time and road to self-destruction!

what happened to the time where everyone trying to be the nice ones?but still tad bit bitchy at the back?i rather see that!oh ya now it hit me!all these sluts wannabe konon2 want to show people their true colours.like they're not the pretentious one?on the contrary,they're the one who are fooling themselves!

ok enough about these people!it's not of my business and i should not stick my nose anywhere near it.just voicing out my opinion.

2010-03-26T11:46:00.004+13:00

hate it when you have the money but you don't know what to buy or things just seem don't look appealing!

hate it when you don't have the money but everything is on sale and all so freaking nice!

ridiculous much??

the world is crazy!NOT me.booo

Hair issue

2010-03-20T22:19:00.005+13:00

now i know why cutting/trimming hair is such a big deal for some people!just because that some people is including me as well!

i ALMOST shed tear when the hairdresser cut my hair!well i haven't been cutting my hair for quite some time so seeing that lovely locks of mine been cut away,i felt so sad!urghhh but i have to!the end of the hair starting to become lil bitch with its annoying splits and dryness!!so there went my hair!lying helplessly on the saloon's floor.goodbye hair.

i don't know why i got so agitated and upset seeing my hair being quite short.like seriously hating it while the fact that i spent 18years having bobcut!sighhh.

but anyway,it's not like i did any major effort to take care of my hair.just the normal routine but the hairdresser told me that constant use of hair dryer caused that dryness and split ends!and yes i do blow dry my hair everyday.well,i hate going out with wet/damp hair so i just had to dry it all!

I'M SO SORRY DEAR HAIR!IT'S FOR THE GREATER GOOD!

greater good that costs me so much money!for the first time ever,i use a really expensive shampoo!better work or else i'll sue the frikin manufacturer!arghhh

the irony

2010-03-15T03:03:00.004+13:00

it's funny how a functional relationship works.for it to work,you,yourself have got to be dysfunctional!

it's funny how you can be at each other's throat for a second and the next one you'll be all cuddly

it's funny how you can scream at the top of your lungs to each other for that particular moment and find yourself smiling,laughing and giggling like nobody's business when you found out that there's no basis for your previous argument.

it's funny how you feel that you have to hate that person to know that you're madly in love with him/her just because his/her annoying little habits drive you mad

it's funny that a relationship works on love-hate basis

Relationship is indeed ironic.It brings you tear but mostly smiles.cause that's just how it works.No questions asked!

the big 2

2010-03-06T23:00:00.002+13:00

today marks our two years being together!

may we have more anniversaries to come!

2010-03-05T02:08:00.005+13:00

i feel like getting a new blog.just a blog where i put all the stuffs that i cook or bake and maybe food reviews.

andddd i found my addiction for baking is not helping!!my sweet tooth is killing me!so much for trying to get rid of the extra pounds huh?pftttt

seriously,whats the big deal of playing with flour?hurmm

update:

i've created a new blog!but that one is just for food stuffs.no rambling and such.

FOOD FOOD FOOD

of bad skin,excess baggage

2010-03-03T14:46:00.002+13:00

i'm in serious need of workout regime!like i really need to stick to my workout plan and be discipline about it!like do it constantly!i'm not really a huge fan of the gym.the only time you would find me working my ass off is during the class workout like yoga,body balance or body attack.People hardly see me doing cardio!for god's sake i hate cardio.the most i can stay is 30mins top!

the reason i feel like working out is because i'm havng some major body issue.i'm totally not a person who worship skinny body and i love my body the way it is but now i have to get rid of the excess baggage!i'm at the point where i feel so fat!usually i just love my body and the way it is.no complain but now i have to deal with the fact that i'm no longer in the ehermm voluptous category but FAT!oh my.

comparing to last year's weight,i was wayy healthier!though the boyfriend thinks i look fine but just need to work out to keep myself fit but still i feel so inferior with my figure!i can't fit into my shorts and jeans.duhhh.strong proof that i need body make over!

i need to lose some weight!!but no worries,i won't be stick thin or anorexic looking.that's so not healthy.Those who are anorexic have some serious and major self-esteem issues but certainly not me!

as for my skin,it's not getting any better either.uneven skin tone,few break-outs,blemis and the list goes on!any good skincare that i should try?'m currently using origins but i feel like switching back to Body shop's Vit E range.at least my skin was better back then.

oh my,i'm only turning 22 and my skin is this bad!wonder how my mum keeps hers so nice and smooth while she's reaching 50!!!

dusty cobweb

2010-02-23T17:29:00.002+13:00

*clear spiderwebs and dust**cough*

seriously,this blog is DEAD!esta muerto!!porque?yo no saves!

the truth,i can't be bother to blog.nothing interesting even if there is i rather not to blog about it.let's just say,my penchant for writing things is DEAD!hahahahaha

so,what's new?school started.i've finally moved outside of the ever crappy uni hall and i no longer have to deal with the biggest bitch of all,the manager Aileen.We found a house somewhere in lincoln town and i'm so happy and did i mention that my current landlord is so awesome?and his house is just next to ours?ok maybe not so awesome about that party.The house is nice and it's cheap!the kitchen is soooooo nice!!to me,when it comes to looking for a house,the most important part would be the kitchen!

i need a place to keep my creative juice flowing,hence a bigger and neater kitchen is necessary!And I miss baking so much!haven't really baked anything for couple of weeks.no time!sighhh.hurmm what else?

and oh,i'm contemplating on going back to black!kind of being sick being brunette and i hate going through the process of retouching the root.maybe i should start chanelling Katy Perry.Black hair and light coloured eyes.except the tan version of her.but no thanks.i don't want to look like a bambi-eyed barbie doll.Normal looks is subtle and i like it that way.or maybe should i just go blonde?just experimenting.haha.Though i miss having black hair where it would look healthier.damn you peroxide for ruining my hair!pfffttt

One last thing,south island's weather is so screwed up and the summer came late!the past few days were like super hot!arghhh.but then again,when it's starting to get cold,i'll complain again.I miss spring!love the weather.can't it be like that for the whole year?screw snow!i'm done building snowman and snowball fights.it's cold and wet!nothing's fun about it!!pfftttt

better stop now!going to take a dip in the pool!Toodles

2009-12-13T06:42:00.002+13:00

for the umpteenth times,and for the love of god,stop stereotyping us,the kelantanese!especially me!yes,i'm dark(NO,i'm TAN),i don't have siamese+chinese sort of feature ie the fair skin and the sepet eyes but i'm still a pure kelantanese nonetheless!i'm getting sick of explaining to people that i'm fully blooded malay,i have no mixed heritage and i'm born and bred in kelantan!i spent my first 17 years growing in kelantan,eating the super delicious food and yes i'm a BIG fan of budu(the achovies sauce) and i speak kelantanese fluently!and both of my parents are from kelantan!doesn't that make me a pure kelantanese?but well,can't really blame people.they're too shallow and LOVE stereotyping people.blergggh.and maybe there are few reasons that i'm not being stereotyped as kelantanese

1)i'm TAN and i have anak mami-ish feature which usually people would mistakenly think that i'm a penangite(another stereotype?)

2)i don't wear headscarf and i'm deemed as way too social and not conservative

3)i don't have that kelantanese slang when i speak malay or english

but seriously these reasons are not THAT of concrete reasons for you people to stereotype me!yes,i'm annoyed!!i do admit for the fact that my ancestors from 7 generations ago hailed from pakistan and i have these features doesnt't make me any less of a kelantanese!pftttttt

i'm pretty much a kelantanese in every way!the way you dress,socialize or talk should not be the ID card to determine one's origin(i can't find the exact word,pardon me).

on another note,being here no one would ever believe i'm from malaysia but the most exciting one that i've ever gotten would be from mexico!oh,i'm flattered!!i gotta admit people here prefer the tan skins and hell yeah i'm proud of it!lol.but not back home!honestly,i feel obsecure over those fair skinned malay!even with my own sisters!they're fairer than me!!but whatever,not being fair doesn't make me any less hotter(oh please let me be perasan and leave me at it at peace!!).

on a totally random note,my wisdom tooth just made it's first appearance and seriously it just made me regret not to do my braces earlier like mommy said!and now the doctor has to extract that tooth before i can have my braces put on and seriously,dentist is sooooooooooooooooooooooo scary!!!more appointments!!gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.now it made me having second thought about having braces!blerghhhhh

ok,i'm rambling but i better stop before i crap even more!i'm too cranky to say nice things now!boooo

my dreamy list!

2009-11-21T13:23:00.005+13:00

who doesn't love HOT guys???oh yeah unless you're not straight or your hormones are just as dead as your split ends!

for the past years i've had the same list of dreamy creatures in form of man that i like,no scratch that,i LOVE and ADORE!so here goes(and if you want to judge how bimbotic i am,please save that for yourself!)

1)JUDE LAWhow can you not love the accent?the gentlemen gestures,the stare,the perfect bod!and the one that i really dig about him,his scruffy and sense of style!it's like his born to wear Hugo Boss!i'd give him perfect 10!he's like the male version of aphrodite!definitely my all time favourite guy!well that comes after mr boyfriend!

2)stuart townsendi've hooked on him ever since i watched queen of the damned!i'm such a sucker for vampires hence the obvious explanation why he's on my list!he is definitely the hottest vampire ever lived!screw robert pattison.(don't get me started on him!blergghhh)charlize theron is helluva lucky chick!oh wait he is lucky too to have one of hollywood's hottest girl!

3)Sir Sean Connery

oh my!should i explain more why?look at him!he's 67 but still maintain that good looks,the charms and of course again i'm such a sucker with guys with british accent(although he is a scottish but he has british accent) and i'd personally vote him sexiest man of all time!the charisma is something you won't see in any guys!best James Bond of all time!Daniel Craig is far cry from being at his par.lol

4)Ed Westwick
the stare is definitely to die for!and oh the way he talks definitely sweeps me of my feet.and the ultimate reason why i drool over him,he's a BRITISH!most of you could have guessed that i'm a sucker for British guys!the accent will definitely win them a date with me(oh please,let me have my perasan moment ok!).and and he sings!he's in an indie band called The Filty Youth!Though mr boyfriend always resent me drooling over him.he keeps saying he's not that HOT!i just let it slide cause i know it's just pure jealousy talking.

5)Johnny Depp
officially named sexiest man alive!his eccentricities make him hot!it's hard to explain but johnny depp just hold certain unique fascination.do i need to say more?duh

7)i save the best for the last!*drum rolls*

and of course the man that i adore and love most,my boyfriend!duhhhh.need i say more?oh wait don't let me cause it will be extremely cheesy!but then again,he's my boyfriend so whatever i can be as cheesy as i want!boohoooo.

je t'aime mon cheri!we

2009-11-14T16:02:00.002+13:00

warning:if you hate whiny post,please discontinue reading this.you'll regret it!

where should i start?i have loads of stuff to whine about.well let's start with my body.currently i'm having issues with my body.like major issues!

1)my thighs are so big that they look like even more bigger and yummier than KFC's drumstick!
2)i have "spare Tyre" that won't go away any soon.i think it's becoming PR soon.blerghhh
3)my skin is dry especially my hand!i might have to marry body butter factory's owner's son so that i have constant supply of body cream and lotions.damn you summer!
4)my face is having major break out!again,damn you summer!
5)my fringe is making me looking like a bloody poodle!no more straight bangs for me in the future!my advice,straight bangs make looks chic and classic but it's very high maintenance and so not versatile.blergh
6)i'm turning FAT!!!!!!like for real ok.i've been pigging out A LOT!laugh all you want but seriously you'll see me in XXL-sized clothes soon enough!

i can't think of anything else i should whine about.

i've warned and told you that you'll regret reading this!boooooo

2009-11-06T12:48:00.002+13:00

i pretty much don't give a horse crap about what people want to say to me lately.why bother?it's my effing life and stay out of it!i choose who i want to mingle and mix with and i stir clear for those who i don't want to.simple isn't it?but sadly,when you don't give a crap about people,other people would be so effing interested with your life!am i that interesting??are you that envious of me that you want to know every single thing that i do?pftttttt.i'd tell those people to get their own bloody lives!blerghhh

and speaking of those people,usually they are the TM type.(for those of you whose lumpy and doesn't know what TM is,it's typical malay!)these so-called righteous people who think they're living their lives according to the teachings of the religion would scoffs and smirks when they come upon those people who are not exactly practicing the same way of life like they did.so what do they do?

they talk and bitch about that person like hell!and oh,spreading rumours too!!what the bloody hell!if you're so good,you wouldn't even dare to bitch about a person that has the not-so-islamic way of life.you'd probably tell the person nicely a thing or two about the wrongs of the way.and if that person does not want to listen to you,then your responsibility is done!God won't judge at the end of the day.And for that,you should not give a horse crap anymore what the person might become!

i've been to a religious school for 5 effing years!you don't talk to me about religion as i may know about it better than you do and one thing i learnt back in school,if you think a friend of yours is making a big mistake,then talk through it nicely and wisely!don't go around and bitch about it!it's no longer part of your concern.save the headache will you??

and please,just because you cover up yourself nicely and appopriately makes you a holy and better than any of us!not wearing headscarf or covering up properly doesn't mean that you're bad!as long as you're good with your fellow people around you,that's more than enough!religious stuff is between you and god and i don't judge you!and that's why i wonder why people like to complicate themselves with things as such.it's quite easy and understandable concept!

i'm not proud of what i become and i do want to change but let me lay out the path of my changes by myself,shall we?i have my parents to guide me better so just stir clear of my life!i'll live they way i want to.period

and oh,seriously,could you please stop telling people all the religious stuffs that you do?for example reciting quran every night,listening to lectures,living according to the religion etc.seriously,Islam is all about being humble!god knows what you do and He will reward you for what you do.there's no need for you to tell other people.you don't go around and be proud of yourself when you do those kind of things.and that ladies and gentlemen is considered riya' and ujub.and as we all know,having riya' and ujub in oneself is a major sin!and those things you did,would be for nothing!

see,i'm not THAT ignorant!

i can go on and on about these things but i think i better stop now.these people are not worth of my time and attention!

save me from myself

2009-10-22T05:05:00.002+13:00

it's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting with
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong
And don't ask me why I love you

It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

christina aguilera,save me from myself

for everything you've done and everything you've given me,
i love you more each and every day!

my perfect lazy sunday

2009-10-18T18:48:00.001+13:00

for some reason,sundays always make me feel like lazing around and doing nothing!and most of my sundays are spent doing nothing.but it does feel good.

my perfect lazy sunday is spent by waking up fashionably late,lunch and just laze around on the couch watching romantic comedy with my loved one!and of course a stroll and a cup of hot chocolate to make my day!

i love sundays!

2009-10-09T16:35:00.003+13:00

my body have so many predicaments right now!be ready for more complaints!bwahahahahha

1)my roots are showing like nobody's business.i need to redye my hair and get it re-highlighted!might go light brown this time.but of course the bf said no need.GUYS!

2)my eyebrows look like shinchan nowadays.As if two big black caterpillars just got stuck on it.tweezing it is pain in the arse!

3)i need facial so bad cause my face is turning into moon's surface!

4)i need to diet cause i've gained so much weight that my jeans are kinda tight for me!

5)my hair is horrendously having split ends!

i'm in serious need of body care from head to toe!where's spa when you need one?oh wait i get only to do that when mom's presence.GAH!i hate DYI!

am i the only one having body issues?damnnn

p/s:the Poppy collection from COACH are damn gorgeous!

2009-09-29T22:57:00.003+13:00

you know what,sometimes i'm just jealous with girls that have smaller boobs.being ehermm "blesses" with bigger than average rack really stressed me out sometimes!how many times i have been told by the boyfriend to change shirt whenever we're going out just for a fact that my boobs are peeking out from my top!sigh.and i cannot simply wear quite a lot of dress that reveal the cleavage due to the fact that i'll look like an attention seeking girl!damnnnn

not that i'm not grateful with the "gift" it's just that once in a while i want to wear something without having to worry that my boobs would "spill" out from my tops or showing too much cleavage!

i hate flat chested girls just because they can wear anything their like without having to worry about their cleavage!yes.i'm jealous.nothing personal!

and i hate going to gym due to the fact that i can only wear sports bra!sports bra is just yucky,unattractive doesn't make me feel like a girl!might as well i wear bandages to cover up my boobs!pfftttt

sorry it's kind of bit personal but yeah my eyes are turning green with envy!

on second thought,i love my rack.i shouldn't be complaining about them.they're just perfect they way they are.but heck i hate hate hate my muffin top and my horrendously fat thigh!god,i hate having body issues!!!!!!!!!!and seriously i hate models!they make normal sized girls like me look fat!pfffttt.we're not fat it's just that you're too skinny!nbooohoooo

2009-09-29T14:26:00.004+13:00

i've been yapping too many things about relationship and break ups.let's put a break on that shall we.it kind of scares me too with all these break ups going on around people that i know.nauzubillah.

for some reason,i've been observing people A LOT these days.nowadays,i rather just keep mum about anything.everything you say can be either manipulated or misunderstood so why bother saying things?and there's too much manipulative people out there.one thing i learn about growing up is that people can be highly manipulative for their own good.

how to avoid this kind of people?ignore their existence!for some reason,these kind of people are basically bunch of insecure bastards and bitches that have low self esteem.they are not confident with themselves and find their lives are way too pathetic for normal human beings,hence they find a way to make people conform to their lifestyle as well.and for people to conform to that,they will find ways for the crowd to come and join them.

this can be achieved in so many ways but one of the most effective ways is to badmouthing people around them.whenever they see a group of people that have the capability to influence others,they'll start to create bad stories about them and spread it to everyone.oh god,sounds stupid ain't it?it is!gah i hate it.

whatever.right now,i can sense this kind of people within 30 metres radius!i'm now allergic to this type.what kind of person would actually bad mouth people just to gather their so-called crews?let me tell you,only idiots do that!wahahaha.

and to THE idiot,yes offence!i'm saying it straight to your face sucker!lol

got dumped?take it like a MAN part 2

2009-09-28T12:29:00.006+13:00

for that first part,it's only applied for those who are dumped by the boyfriends.how about those guys that got dumped by the gfs?

the symptom will somewhat be like this:

GUYS
beg the girls to take them back.keep stalking them on fb.leave offline messages on ym or msn.drink till drunk.keep bugging the girls and their new boyfriends.refuses to accept reality.keep asking her why she doesn't want you anymore.trying to make her life miserable like yours.tell them you want to stay friends.worst case,he bitches about her to whole wide world what kind of bitch she is.

GIRLS
start looking for new ones.enjoy themselves.date new guy.live a happy life

see,guys under this circumstances can be truly pethatic!for god's sake have some pride will you?go out look for new ones.i know its easier said than done but seriously why bother thinking about your ex while the fact that clearly you no longer belong together.all those "we'll be together forever" stuffs are pure bullshit so why dwell on that?get a frikin life!life is much more than that.take it like a man and stop being such a wuss!stalking on your ex?bitching about her to other people?trying to make her do things right?who the hell are you to do such thing to her?once you've broken up,you're no longer any part of her life.all she wishes is for you to just disappear and get a life.sounds brute n cruel?it is cause that's life!stop whining,get a life and show that you have balls guys!(just a figure of speech ok.don't do it literally!).

relationship is truly a complicated yet intriguing thing.well if you want to be in it,you gotta have guts and willing to take the risk.suffice to say,relationship is not for wussies!and for goodness' sake don't go around telling people how good you and your partner are doing just to justify that you're happy in it!it shows ok.and people don't give a damn about you and your partner!

well for the last part,it is for certain particular parties.seriously you don't need to come to my house and tell us that you're happy with your partner!that is so unnecessary cause everyone knows that you're the idiot and the blind one at it.too blind to see that you're just a puppet!

got dumped?take it like a MAN!

2009-09-25T11:42:00.003+12:00

have you ever wonder how a girl and guy takes a break up??ok here's a pattern of a break up for girls and guys

Girls
Keeps weeping till can't cry anymore.eat tonnes of chocolate.socially deprived.don't see sunlights for days,maybe weeks.bestfriend's shirts are all wet from the tears.cutting ex-bf's pictures,destroys anything that reminds her of him.shopping,manicure and doing hair are no longer therapeutic.go berserk when she hears her ex's name within 50 metres radius.on some extreme cases,hating guys for a long period or rest of her life or a break could lead to a self destruction!Considering a therapist is an option for some.

Guys
Call his buddies for a night out,drink himself happy,make out with strangers(hope the bastard get STD!).Play games till they have bloodshot eyes.drink again.date new girls.

here's what a conversation between guys would be like

bloke A:hey bro,haven't seen you in ages!how ya doing?
bloke B:i'm good bro.
bloke A:how's your girl?doing good?
bloke B:she's urmmmm we broke up.
bloke A:owh damn she's real looker.oh hey come and drink man.

see,guys never dwell on their break up!they don't go sobbing to their friends about the break up.instead,they do it in an enjoyable way.you'll say its easy for me to say it but for us girl we feel sorry for ourselves A LOT!we can have self pity but put a limit to that.If you just got dumped then do self reflection a bit.And always take it this way, "if the bastard doesn't want me then its his loss."Have a bit of pride and walk tall ladies!

Open up to new possibilities.I don't say you should be a serial dater but get to know some other people and please put in your head that men are NOT the same.Remember men are simple creatures so they are very readable.Just keeping knowing people until you want to settle down again.Don't be scared to be in relationship.If u want to be in it,the you have to take the risk!and remember ladies,DO NOT DWELL ON YOUR PAST RELATIONSHIP!that bastard dumped you so that's it.period

girls turn to chocolate while guys turn to drink or games.Girls binge alone while guys enjoy it with their friends.Can't you see how heartless guys can get?they are not exactly heartless its just their nature.well it's the ego that plays the card here.so the lesson is,have a pride and sense of dignity!go out with your girl friends and enjoy it.it makes you look forward for tomorrow and what life might bring you!

selamat hari raya

2009-09-25T11:11:00.002+12:00

guess what i'm back!i knew it!i can't stay away from blogging for too long!damn it.whatever.we're living in a free world where people can make choices whatever they feel like to.Well as long as you don't cross the line and you don't go around starting genocide or holocaust or worst start bitching about people that are innocent just because you want to gather some "cool crew".whatever!

it's not too late to wish everyone selamat hari raya aidilfitri,maaf zahir dan batin.

did you guys have a blast?cause i know i did!the best raya away from home.despite the fact that i had test early in the morning and i was sleeping deprived,i had a ball!oh wait i didnt even have baju raya to begin with!seemed like a bad beginning to an eid,no?but against all odds,i had fun!i had fun eating,yapping,laughing and of course doing what i enjoyed most,cooking!my first time of making nasi minyak was a success.told ya i got midas' touch in cooking.bwahahahaha*blow my own trumpet*

tomorrow we shall have get together again with the canterbury peeps.another day of indulging myself in the kitchen.haha.seriously,kitchen is one therapeutic place for me,provided it is spanky clean or i'll go berserk if it's messy.wait did i just sound like Stepford wives?blerghhhh.but yeah i'm obsessed with kitchen!

i have lots of things that i want to blog about!but i don't know what!lol

final goodbye

2009-09-14T22:27:00.003+12:00

i've deleted all my posts for the reason that all the bitter sweet things that happened for the past year shall only be remembered by ME!
and for the things that happened to me for the past few weeks,i took it as a growing pain.who said life would be a smooth sailing?there's always bastards and bitches out there who'd make your life miserable and trying to make you as miserable as they are.that's what we called life
my advice,move on and don't give a shit about it cause believe me,life's too short to be bothered by these petty,unimportant things and for whatever happens,it made me pervious to people's critics or people who simply want to bring you down.
you live only once and make the most out of it!stay with people that makes you feel the warmth and gives you true meaning of friendship and stir clear to those who are being pain in the a**!
sometime it's just mind boggling why people like to live that way,by this i mean trying to think of ways to bringing people down!honestly i pity those kind of people.may you have the right guidance.
i don't hold grudge.i forgive but i definitely don't forget.so once hurt,i'll stir clear of you.THAT'S HOW I ROLL!and if you have problems with that then,it's none of my concern.
you can be as miserable as you want,just stay the F*** out of my life!hahaha

that's all i think from ME!maybe you'll see me rambling again.maybe not.i'm not that important anyway unless you like to check my blog for my daily updates to feed your hunger for gossips and whatnot.suffice to say,go find others to stalk.LOL

goodbye,arrivederci,au revoir and taaaa.