Disappear

i'm no longer here.

i'm here now

don't count on me to write anything anymore.The blog is officially dead!

si chickas,Este blog muerta,comprende mi?

living my life is too demanding that i have to ditch this beloved blog of mine.

kthxbai

i need to shop but then again nothing much to buy?i can't buy anymore clothes cause my wardrobe is full and the bf keeps reminding me of the unworn ones.i could totally go just for ONE handbag now.The one that i saw on Topshop website was gorgeous and purrfect!!pretty please??

and now that is no longer THAT cold,time to pack up those thick jackets and bring out the tunics!wheee.oh ya,which reminds me,i need to update the wardrobe.heeeeeeee

but then again,we're saving up for Gold Coast trip this summer.pfttttt

oh which reminds me,melbourne was awesome!!but not so much of shopping heaven as it has been dubbed as.blerghhh.though i love their MYERS and David Jones and big ass DFO.and the Nine West and Aldo were so much better than the ones in KL.oh,cheaper too!

overall,melbourne was okay.but didn't give me the feeling "oh,we so gonna have to come here again".

Next one,Gold Coast,Sydney and Perth!though i'm not really that keen for sydney.Aussie is pretty much the same every city i think.i'm not architectural junkie hence the Opera House doesn't really impress me.Better save up and visit England!Pidot is there and we'll get free accommodation.LOL

if any of you,find this post doesn't make any sense,guess what?it DOES!i'm completely rambling right now!booo

back to reality!and it ain't fun!!dirty kitchens(major turn off for me to do any cooking!!),laundry piling up,school stuff to catch up!damn it.

but,two weeks home was superb nonetheless!and i;m mad happy for i finally found the perfect jeans that fit me so well without having to alter them!screw levi's or G-star raw for dorothy perkins had the perfect jeans for me!so i bought three jeans of the same colour,size and design!that's how obsessed i am with DP!be in my shoes and you know how hard it is to find jeans that suit me nicely!being naturally voluptous *ehermmm* with ass we bit smaller than Kim Kardashian and fleshy thighs,looking the perfect jeans are like needle in the haystack!but oh well,i found mine and thats that!

i'm beginning to miss motak and mia.they both so adorable!and i've developed new addiction,babies' head!!they smell so nice!!

i'm hooomeee!!but being home when there's no one around drives me nut!!mum is busy like always and dad is her permanent driver hence leaving me and maid and my chubby sister home.maid would be on computer facebooking(yes,she has an account and i have to fight for the computer!)geezzz.

i'm home for a day and i can't stay put already!!i need to go out and eat or shop or whatever that spells fun!not sitting around all day and stuffing myself and watching tv like a lazy fat housewife!!yikes(no pun intended)

can't wait to go to kl and meet up with tash and kimi and have some fun!i mean being home is fun but when your folks are busy as bees,it ain;t that fun!sighh

oh,for the first time ever,i broke curfew!i made a promise with my uncle to be back before 10 and i was home at 11.30.but i was out with nik's family so that should be good excuse right?all of this made me appreciate the freedom that i have while i'm in lincoln where no one tells you what time you should get your ass home!it made me think about living by my own once i'm back for good.I'm not a ten year old and so,i refuse to be treated like one!i'm 22 for god's sake!

i was not exactly a rebellious type,i did break the restrictions wee bit here and there but i pretty much do what they want me to hence i personally think i deserve to have my own stand on certain thing!being grounded sucks!!gahhh

i'm bored the hell of my mind and got too bored i found myself checking my old friendster account!i almost forgot that i had one!but oh well,flipping through the old photos brought back those crazy memories back in AUSMAT years.All of us have grown into different people,taking our own paths and how far we drifted apart.oh well,that's just how it works.I'm getting all sentimental and mushy aren't i?

i'm not supposed to be wasting time!i'm supposed to clean up my room,fold all the laundry and pack for malaysia!!yeap,i'm going back for two weeks!!woot woot!!!

oh,another thing!i've gone back to black!like jet black after so much contemplation!!it's like even darker than my original hair.but nevermind.i'm so happy with it that i might decide not to go brown or auburn again in near distant future.pfffttt

can't you tell?

i'm beyond lazy to write anything here

kthxbye

HUGE TRUNK

I LOVE MY BIG ASS!

beauty and the beast

I'm not really a sucker for romantic movies and definitely NOT a fan of Vanessa Hudgens but for some reason i was attracted to this one!too bad it only comes out in 2011.but yeah the main actor is HOT!*hyperventilates* and oh Neil Patrick Harris is in it too!

"Ignorance is a bliss"

sometimes i live by that phrase simply because all the petty,unimportant things don't really matter to me and never will be.I lay out the rules of my own live and if you don't like it,to hell with your opinion and what you think of it.

I say what i want to say and judge according to my own beliefs.I don't play pretend and i reveal my true colours.Hate me all you want.I don't give a damn cause you don't matter to me and your opinion worth nothing to me.

tasya said,the only reason why there are still idiots lingering around is because it is illegal to get rid of them and it's true.Oh well,who am i to judge them.I'm no einstein(oh wait you don't need IQ of more than 121 to see if people are idiots or not!).

On a lighter note,i can't wait for the exams to be over!!exam week is such a torture!!and i'm really homesick!ishh.I miss my parents so bad and now i develop a habit of breaking down to tears whenever i speak with them over the phone.(Shut it!don't tell me that i'm such a baby.It's a well known fact.TQ)

where's retail therapy when you need one?Oh wait.I can't cause I'm broke!sigh

enough of senseless rantings.Gotta go back burying myself with books.

k thx bye

"He pulled me into safest place I know.

And he paints me with the most vibrant colors of love"

and that's why i love you,nyet!xoxo

i was bored and out my sane mind so i decided to ransack my own closet and guess what i found,AT LEAST 6 NEW,UNWORN WITH PRICE TAG DRESSES!membazir much?keep buying new ones but never been worn.

and i remembered paying full price for those dresses!!!impulsive much.sighhh.

reminder to self:DON'T BUY ANY DRESSES UNTIL THOSE UNWORN ONES BEEN WORN AT LEAST ONCE!(but i'm pretty sure i still buy new ones.hahahaha)

no wonder the boyfriend being a mak nenek when he saw me buying dresses.

but hey.i'm no one to blame.I'm living in frikin CHRISTCHURCH and being underdress is normal and effortlessly comfortable.and now,it's freeeeziinggg.balik2 pakai jeans,tights and sweaters.My trusted cotton on sweaters that is.I swear Cotton on sells the most comfortable hoodies ever.and it's el cheapo.what's there not to like right?

my daily staple wear would be my flats,my kids jeans(yes i wore kids jeans because they have it perfectly in my size and length!!xpyh nk alter2!) and my sweaters.Being underdress is how it is here hence i don't find myself spending extra time getting dressed and i swear i get ready way faster than the boyfriend!!

even going to riccarton pon i can simply wear my pjs and no one would give u any look so its normal!i like it here!it's effortless and comfortable and people don't give you any kind of stares!so i think the dresses can hold first and it could mean that i'm on dress shopping ban for at least a year!OH NO!!!

whatever those israelis did to the people on board of those flotillas heading towards Gaza are way beyond inhumane and no valid excuse for it.

Not only i was angry by the sight of it,it made me think how lucky i am for never have to go through such hardships and i really thank God for that.It made me really grateful.I have so much around me but yet i still complain.

Those israelis deserved to a slow painful death!what they did was way too much for people too handle.Since when trying to aid people become a crime and seen as an attempt to attack group of soldiers who were armed to the teeth???

No wonder even the God,as the most compassionate and most forgiving above all had they condemned till the judgment day.Not only those israelis are hated by the whole world,even in the eyes of the Almighty,they can't be salvaged.

My condolences to the families of the flotilla victims.Let's all pray that the convoy will be safe throughout the journey.

current cravings:

Blackberry gallette

macarons(do i need to say more??)

you see,i'm the sugar based type of person.My moods are highly influenced with sugar contain in this fat body of mine and without doubt,sugar deprivation leads to severe moodswings and excess of it makes me hyper!but still,my body will not work without sugar and i'm always in constant need of sugars.Just so my body would work accordingly and to avoid me being cranky.So moral of the story,if anyone sees me crany,just shove ANY type of food that has high sugar contain!but NOT turkish delight and sweets cause i can't take it!make it creamy and sweets.demanding much?yes i know.haha

lets clear the air shall we?

Just so we clear,i won't try to please people and u won't find me sucking up to people and i don't expect people to please me too.

I know i wasn't exactly an angel in the past nor in the present but i live the way i want to and if you find it hard for you to accept it,don't bother going around bitching about it.It's doing no one any good.

I try fixing my way everytime i could and i know i don't live all by myself and there's a need for me to follow people's way sometime but if i find your ways are ridiculous,pardon me for not trying to conform to it.Heck,i don't even need to apologize in the first place.

I'm trying to put it the nicest way I can here so please,i expect you to at least have some self respect and try not to go around ranting about it!

you wanna talk manners with me?Go ahead.I can go on and on pointing out your flaws but why bother?everyone has flaws and please don't overestimate yourself.We're no gods and only mere humans so save it for yourself.Learn to evaluate yourself before you start pointing out others flaws.

If you have the littlest tiny bit of self respect left in you,please stop and fix your ways before try to fix others.

Oh,lastly,if you find any of my writings are too offensive for you,stop reading this blog.I write whatever i want.It's called freedom of speech.Have you heard of it?

I mind my own business,so i suggest you start doing the same thing.

Hate me or love me,It's an obsession!

the weather has been really depressing lately.it's been raining non stop for a week and seemingly it'll continue to rain for another week then followed by snow!(yay or nay?)

thanks to the weather,i've been skipping ALL Of my classes.The car broke down and mr boyfe was quite busy and had no time to fix it and me being a spoilt rotten brat as always refused to take the bike to uni(walking is even out of the question!)

another big news,i have THREE(3) assignments due this thursday!Oh god,please save me!!

worst news of the day:my stupid chinaman groupmate of ACCT308 decided to bail on me and kemmey!he wanted to do the assignment alone and told us its because we hardly reply him!what the bloody hell!ishh.Kemmey and I never failed to finish up our parts and most of the time it was just me and kemmey who worked our asses off on case study!!stupid bloody chinaman!!!for the past three cases,it was kem and I who were doing all the work.all he did was just buggging me and kem to finish it up!what an ungrateful bastard!whatever loser.Go on and do the assignment yourself.we'll see if Jack Radford can really understand what you're trying to say!pffftttt

seriously,why all malaysian singers nowadays sound like indonesian singers?crisis identity much?oh wait typical la kan.orang nak nanyi mcm tu they wanna sing like that jugak kan??the thing about indonesian singers is,their songs are nice because of the music arrangement and the lyric doesn't sound that corny.ishhhh

tolonglah,have a stand please.How typical can it get??

oh one more thing,to malaysian rappers,stop sounding like a p.diddy or any african american rappers.And what's the big deal with this Caprice fella??geez.he's not even good.and god,don't get me started with his MVs.It's heinous.U think u're the next p.diddy??exploiting sexy girls in MVs should be left to pitbull.Simply because,those girls are already skanks to begin with.but those malaysian girls in his MVs aren't and when they tried,it just looked real bad!

For goodness' sake,save the trouble lah people.

oh btw,Shahir af8 was quite good.I mean not bad for AF products since we all know that AF artistes ni not so much of talents.promo je lebih.surprisingly,he's got the package!~